Clarity

I'm too impulsive. I act without thinking and go purely on feeling. This is a great and a horrible thing. This is how I get myself into situations where I am speeding toward disaster. It's like I see the train wreck up ahead, I know that I can't change anything that's happened, but I continue to drive full speed at it. What is wrong with me that I can't just leave a situation alone? My emotions would be far more balanced if I could just do that. But no, I have to be the asshole that becomes interested in someone when they're all wrapped up in someone else. And really...does anyone grasp the concept that they shouldn't gas me up when I'm feelin them? Mehhh. The thing that kills me is that I can't fully remember our conversations, and I can't fully remember what the person said. Do you like me or are you just attracted to me? Why did I even start that conversation? Why did I need to know? I'm thinking I'd like to be blissfully ignorant. Smh...I'm so confused. I just want a definite answer. Some clarity. I just wanted you to tell me if I should give up now or if there's hope for me.