In the past 3 days my world has been flipped upside down. Fears that weren't even a thought in my mind have come true. Everything is just shades of gray. I'm hurt, I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm fuckin depressed. Nothing makes sense right now. Absolutely nothing. I feel like I'm wandering around in the darkness. How could this happen? How is it that I'm that girl? Did you mean ANYTHING you said, or was it all just lies?
Part of me wants him to come back so I can just reject him. Another part of me wants him to come back, so I could be with him. But if that were to happen, I wouldn't have any respect for myself. So that's obviously not an option.
I'm just really fucking confused. Why do we allow ourselves to be open to people when it seems like we spend more time being miserable than we do being happy? Why is it worth it? I let myself be open to the possibility to love, and love found me. And for a short amount of time, I was truly and completely happy. It was disgusting how good I felt and how content I was. But my life stayed true to how its always been: when something good happens, something worse is just around the corner. And shit just went down hill. And in the past 3 days, it feels like my heart has been stomped on, and thrown over a cliff.
I just want to know WHY? If I was willing to overcome all over your drama, why weren't you? And how could you do this to me?
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HONESTLY: SOME PEOPLE DON'T DESERVE TO BE IN YOUR LIFE REGARDLESS OF HOW MUCH YOU MAY LOVE THEM. I'M NOT SAYING THAT YOU NEED TO STOP LOVING HIM BECAUSE WHEN YOU REALLY LOVE SOMEONE YOU NEVER STOP LOVING THEM BUT LETTING GO IS KEY. TRUSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteME I KNOW IT'S BEYOND HARD BUT ONCE YOU OVER COME A HEART BREAK YOU FEEL LIKE YOU CAN LITERALLY DO ANYTHING AND IT WON'T BE AS DIFFICULT. HONESTLY DO WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU. HERE ARE A FEW SENTENCES FROMT HE BOOKT HE SECRET THAT I THINK WILL HELP YOU IN YOUR SITUATION:
-WHAT MOST PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND IS THAT A THOUGHT HAS A FREQUENCY. WE CAN MEASURE A THOUGHT. AND SO IF YOU'RE THINKING THAT THOUGHT OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, IF YOU'RE IMAGINING IN YOUR MIND HAVING THAT BRAND NEW CAR, HAVING THE MONEY YOU NEED, BUILDING THAT COMPANY... IF YOU'RE IMAGINING WHAT THAT LOOKS LIKE, UOU'RE EMITTING THAT FREQUENCY ON A CONSISTENT BASIS.
-THE LAW OF ATTRACTION IS ALWAYS WORKING, WHETHER YOU BELIEVE IT OR UNDERSTAND IT OR NOT.
-CREATION IS ALWAYS HAPPENING. EVERY TIME AN INDIVIDUAL HAS A THOUGHT, OR A PROLONGED CHRONIC WAY OF THINKING THEY'RE IN THE CREATION PROCESS. SOMETHING IS GOING TO MANIFEST OUT OF THOSE THOUGHTS.
-YOU ATTRACT TO YOU THE PREDOMINANT THOUGHTS THAT YOU'RE HOLDING IN YOUR AWARENESS, WHETHER THOSE THOUGHTS ARE CONSCIOUS OR UNCONSCIOUS.
-YOU WANT TO BECOME AWARE OF YOUR THOUGHTS AND CHOOSE YOUR THOUGHTS CAREFULLY AND YOUW ANT TO HAVE FUN WITH THIS, BECAUSE YOU ARE THE MASTERPIECE OF YOUR OWN LIFE.
-YOU CAN BEGIN RIGHT NOW TO FEEL HEALTHY, YOU CAN BEGIN TO FEEL PROSPEROUS. YOU CAN BEGIN TO FEEL THE LOVE THAT'S SURROUNDING YOU, EVEN IF IT'S NOT THEIR. AND WHAT WILL HAPPEN IS THE UNIVERSE WILL CORRESPOND TO THE NATURE OF YOUR SONG. THE UNIVERSE WILL CORRESPOND TO THE NATURE OF THAT INNER FEELING AND MANIFEST, BECAUSE THAT'S THE WAY YOU FEEL.
-IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT THAT YOU FEEL GOOD, BECAUSE THIS FEELING GOOD IS WHAT GOES OUT AS A SIGNAL INTO THE UNIVERSE AND STARTS TO ATTRACT MORE OF ITSELF TO YOU. SO THE MORE YOU CAN FEEL GOOD, THE MORE YOU WILL ATTRACT THE THINGS THAT HELP YOU FEEL GOOD, AND ARE ABLE TO KEEP BRINGING YOU UP HIGHER AND HIGHER.
LOVE YOU ALWAYS :)