thoughts of the day...

Every second, there's a new weight on my chest
A mind full of doubt, a heart full of scars.
Watching you so intently
Waiting for you to screw up
Do you feel the intensity of my gaze?
Does your skin start to burn under this microscope?
A weight when you do good
A weight when you do bad
Always something weighing on this mind.

What to do with a heart that refuses
To love or be loved,
And a soul that wants
To love and be loved.

Even still...

In a world full of possibility, I see you.
In the face of the impossible, I see you.
you, you, you, always you.
Do we love each other?
Or are we addicted to the chaos?
The heart that loved you so intently,
beats indifferently when you're near.
Even after all of this time, I see you.
Even after all of this time, you see me.
What does this mean?
Are we meant to be?
Is that what I want?
You are not my dream, or my wish,
yet I can't tear myself away from you...
After all of this time...